Another Rant

I'm so sick and fucking tired of people. I swear. I really fucking mean it too. I'm tired of people complaining about BULLSHIT. I mean, don't complain about shit you get yourself caught up into. I'm tired of fake ass people too. I've been really trying lately to stay positive but what the fuck?????? Everyone around me is being negative and I'm over here trying to be positive and it just doesn't seem like its getting anywhere. And why is it that EVERYTHING I seem to do is wrong??? It's as if I can't do anything right! Oh and also, I've been pretty fucking generous lately. I NEVER help anyone. Never!!!!!! But now that I see some of my close ones doing not so well, I try to help them out. I give them what I can, even when I don't really have it. Listen folks, I'm not rich. All I make is 450 dollars a month, with a 100 dollar phone bill. I hate when ppl think I have all the money in the world, when I don't. I've actually been spending money I don't have. Thats a big fuckin problem. I'm about to take shit back because I can't afford it. My savings has plummeted, from me taking money out to pay my credit card. And it's just whack. I really hope my mom doesn't see my statement, because I wouldn't even know how to explain.

*sigh*

this whole being "nice" shit isn't getting me anywhere.
i'm tired of letting shit slide
or trying to come up with excuses as to why someone is treating me like shit
i don't know..